Wednesday, November 27, 2013

Is It Christmas?

For me, it's not yet.  I haven't got the tree up, I haven't sent out Christmas Cards... I just don't really feel like it's here yet.  I'm not sure why, but I just don't feel as though I'm in the right mood for it yet.

Since my little bird died, I haven't really wanted to be happy about Christmas; and do you really blame me?  I mean, my poor little bird died only 3 weeks before it and I had presents signed from her.  
So this year, I'm not sure where this leaves me.  I'm happy that I've moved on, but I'm also sad she's not here to enjoy the time with me.  I know some people will tell me to move on and that she's only a bird.  But the bond we had was really strong; and that we shared something special.  My little bird had such trust in me that I could open her wings, check her feet and pet her so gently she'd fall asleep in my hands while I watched television at night... now that was trust; total trust.  She got to a point where if I kissed her beak, she never bit me, she just let me and nibbled my nose gently in return.  Such a sweetheart.
I know it's good to remember the good times about her, but it's hard to live without a pet when you live alone. 

Now, over the last year, you've all seen me work on getting on with my life... and on my health too.  I have hoped to try to move on through this Christmas Season without thinking of my departed little bird, but I haven't.  
Mum actually suggested putting her cage away soon... but it's not yet a year.  I know where I'll put it and hope to use it again for my next bird in a few years' time.  However, it's always difficult to lose a pet near this time of year; as you always remember them at this time then... and it takes time to get yourself back into what Christmas is all about.  Until my next post, take care, keep safe and warm and remember, I'm always here. 


  1. I can't believe your little bird has been gone close to 12 months now. It doesn't seem long ago when you announced the unexpected news.
    Its only been nine days since my bird died. Watching one of the other birds this morning reminded me what the peachface used to do. I guess that is one thing I will miss.

    1. yeah, there'll be small thing you'll miss of your little fluffy friend which you never expected to miss; but you will. I'm hoping to have a quiet Christmas and remember fondly how my little bird's memory has been to me, then I'll put away her cage until I'm ready for another little friend in a few years' time. :D